It’s been months since my last post. I’m coming to the realization that having a blog isn’t for anyone, it’s for me. My life is nowhere near perfect or ideal or by any means encouraging but it’s all I’ve got. My life has overall improved recently. I’ve enrolled and completed a Pima Medical Institue course, Phlebotomy Technician. I’m basically a vampire, a vamp looking for a job so hiring managers hmu for a resume. I have a well-paying job in the meantime that I actually really enjoy. Working as a Live Goods Merchandiser was the connection to plants that I didn’t know I needed. I am responsible for the overall appearance of these gardens and discounting the sadder looking plants.
I’ve moved back into my mother’s house. That’s a whole set of problems and headaches itself. Recently I wonder what she thinks of me seeing as how this was the weekend that I was supposed to be graduating from UA. I for one am so disappointed in myself, I could have been done… but my choices have led me away from that my choices really lead me to single motherhood. I got lucky enough to get a good kid though. My child is beautiful in every way possible and will accomplish great feats in his lifetime and who knows maybe his soul just couldn’t wait. It’s my responsibility now to care for that soul.
I’ve just recently started using and putting creativity into a bullet journal. I like it, started and stopped many versions of bullet journals but when I do utilize this format I feel organized and successful even with tedious tasks. I feel like it holds me accountable for how I spend my days be they productive or lazy. This time around I’ve started taping and inserting any relevant papers or keepsakes that could be useful for future reference. I’ve been contemplating starting to keep track of tidbits of my dreams, REM sleep is such a peculiar time to me. There are parts of dreams that I can remember for weeks but sometimes it’s like this world my subconscious has created moments before my awakening wasn’t real nothing but a passing creation. like many creations on this planet here for the moment only to pass and be replaced in one form or another.
This post is all over the place and really serves no purpose than to dump thoughts I’ve had today.. but I need to commit to tasks and ideas and let them grow into something. even if I can’t see the final vision yet.
You know with all that’s going in the world ecologically and politically I have been looking into what I can do to help reduce my footprint in the world. I read a statistic somewhere that said each person creates about 7-10 pounds of trash in a single day. That is just ridiculous to me but it still makes sense.
As much as I’d like to put my son in cloth diapers and reuse and wash them each day where I live it is just not possible, so like most parents across the country and the world I use disposable diapers because of the convenience. There’s not much I can do to change that except looking into potty training him early but even that is a challenge in itself.
The most simple and lazy thing I have found to reduce my waste is to start composting. Composting is basically putting together all kinds of natural waste from fruits and veggies to cardboard and paper and letting nature do its thing. To speed up this process vermin aka natural decomposers like different species earthworms can be added to the pile and they will just digest and expel it all again.
When the pile is completely composted this can be reused as fertilizer and it saves you the trip to home depot or where ever to spend 15-30 dollars on the pre-produced stuff. That is just mind blowing to me, with this fertilizer you can grow your own vegetables, fruits, and herbs or even just have a flower garden. And don’t even get me started on how a flower garden could help out the bee population.
But you really don’t have to use your product to plant because that is just anxiety inducing itself because of the whole “what if I don’t have a green thumb?” dilemma. That means that if you are willing to you can find a local farmer or gardener and make them offer for your product, and there you go money in your pocket for your trash.
So from what I can tell all you need is some kind of plastic container to layer your waste and within a matter of weeks, you’ll have your own piece of mother nature doing work right in your backyard or porch. And yeah I know it is kind of unnerving thinking wow I have a bunch of stuff just sitting there decomposing and doesn’t that just mean its rotting? No, it’s not it’s slowly breaking down the enzymes and this is just an all natural chemical reaction that our planet has been doing since the beginning of life. It’s really just trying to find the right combination of green and brown waste and once you find that balance you really don’t have to do much except stir and re-layer waste occasionally.
So that is my first solution to a green lifestyle change, I still need to get a container but I’ve already been collecting my waste and once it’s started I’ll be sure to take pictures and I think eventually I’ll add in some earthworms. but I want to learn how to balance my green and brown waste before hand.